Health Problems

Wowee!! So much has happened since I last posted which was such a long time ago. I went to the doctor's to ask why I hadn't started my you - know - what by now (period) and they found out that I was underweight. I was then referred to an eating disorder clinic, and now attend weekly weighings. If being diagnosed an anorexic isn't hard enough, I have to be putting on weight - about 0.5kg weekly or I will be admitted to hospital under strict oral feeding of foods or liquid, due to my BMI being critically low. The last past months it has been a tough and bumpy road for me, as I am still on a long journey, (trying) to recover. The doctor expects me to be drinking 4 glasses of semi skimmed milk a day on top of everything else I eat in the day; even that is supposed to be increased. Without going into too much detail I don't even know how it all started, it wasn't as if I ever stopped eating, but I guess you could say I was your typical calorie counter and a calorie deficit over such a long period ment that I had lost the weight so quickly not realising it and have to suddenly put all this weight back on. I think I am just under 6 stone which isn't right for my height or age. I can officially say I never tryed to lose weight or thought I was fat, but I just got into a bad habit that I thought I controlled but it started to overcome and control me.
Due to this I have missed out on so many opportunities, I am not allowed to do french exchange at school and have been stopped from participating in Bullfrog youth theatre group or doing any excercise, as well as many other chances which have came up and I am not able to do yet until I get better hopefully. (even my lunches as school have to be watched and authorised now in a room) without being able to sit with my friends in the canteen like normal others. That's all for now. I just wish it would all die over pretty soon to be hounest.

Posted by Emiimariie

CY Group

I had 'CY Group' again tonight, it was pretty cool. While my friends made chocolate muffins with white chocolate chips in them, I made carrot cake muffins with telda using mine and her new recipe. I gave one to her, my friends Chris and Angie, and brought two home for my mum and dad. Originally, we made 6 but then we were left with 5 after telda accidently ruined one of them.

Posted by puresleepingbeauty

Cervical cancer jab

I had my first cervical cancer jab at school today. It didn't hurt that much, not as much as an anaesthetic or a blood test but afterwards now it really does ache, and I find it hard to lift it, it really hurts and feels really tight and tense. Hopefully it gets better soon.

Posted by puresleepingbeauty

Show in a week

Well we have 'The Wizard of Oz' show in a week, its quite scary actually how much the time flies. We have had so many rehearsals up and down from east grinstead and sevenoaks every saturday 2-5pm and every sunday 1-3.30pm, but now tomorrow has been extended to 1-5 and sunday kept the same. I'm going to be so tired, I cant wait till the performances are over though. Hope it all goes well, and we have costume rehearsals soon with hair and makeup that we have to do ourselves.

Posted by puresleepingbeauty

Orthodontist

Yesterday was the orthodontist, so I left school early at 1.30pm, just 10 minutes before the end of lunch. I was so tired from going to see the movie avatar in cinema the night before (a 3 hour long film) that I had a small nap in the car on the way back and about 30 minutes to maybe an hour nap when I got home; and I was still really tired afterwards. Tonight I'm going to Chris and Angie's tuesday bible studies club again, and my parents are getting takeaway, they are really unhealthy. This means I will have to find something for dinner and decide what I want.

Posted by puresleepingbeauty

'Bullfrog' Productions

It was a long day at Cheqeurs Mead Theatre, costume fitting and rehearsals for 'The Wizard of Oz'. 12-5pm - a 5 hour long day. We managed to get all the costumes fitted and the Jitterbug and Ghost dance rehearsed, as well as main character filming, and the ending scene practised, though we were sitting around most of the time. Another lot of rehearsals at The Stag theatre tomorrow 10-3.30pm, 5 and a half hours long. It will all be worth it when the production is over in the end hopefully. Wish me luck!

Posted by puresleepingbeauty

Busy year

I can tell this is definately going to be a busy new year, with everything I have going on its hard to catch up. Tomorrow I have got 5 hours bullfrog youth theatre rehearsals from 12-5pm to catch up for what we missed last week, and then Sunday I have 5 and a half hours rehearsals from 10-3.30pm as it has been extended for longer due to the production being in only a few weeks. Tiresome weekend yet I hope we can slot bluewater in there again somewhere, hopefully tomorrow!

Posted by puresleepingbeauty