Health Problems

Wowee!! So much has happened since I last posted which was such a long time ago. I went to the doctor's to ask why I hadn't started my you - know - what by now (period) and they found out that I was underweight. I was then referred to an eating disorder clinic, and now attend weekly weighings. If being diagnosed an anorexic isn't hard enough, I have to be putting on weight - about 0.5kg weekly or I will be admitted to hospital under strict oral feeding of foods or liquid, due to my BMI being critically low. The last past months it has been a tough and bumpy road for me, as I am still on a long journey, (trying) to recover. The doctor expects me to be drinking 4 glasses of semi skimmed milk a day on top of everything else I eat in the day; even that is supposed to be increased. Without going into too much detail I don't even know how it all started, it wasn't as if I ever stopped eating, but I guess you could say I was your typical calorie counter and a calorie deficit over such a long period ment that I had lost the weight so quickly not realising it and have to suddenly put all this weight back on. I think I am just under 6 stone which isn't right for my height or age. I can officially say I never tryed to lose weight or thought I was fat, but I just got into a bad habit that I thought I controlled but it started to overcome and control me.
Due to this I have missed out on so many opportunities, I am not allowed to do french exchange at school and have been stopped from participating in Bullfrog youth theatre group or doing any excercise, as well as many other chances which have came up and I am not able to do yet until I get better hopefully. (even my lunches as school have to be watched and authorised now in a room) without being able to sit with my friends in the canteen like normal others. That's all for now. I just wish it would all die over pretty soon to be hounest.

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CY Group

I had 'CY Group' again tonight, it was pretty cool. While my friends made chocolate muffins with white chocolate chips in them, I made carrot cake muffins with telda using mine and her new recipe. I gave one to her, my friends Chris and Angie, and brought two home for my mum and dad. Originally, we made 6 but then we were left with 5 after telda accidently ruined one of them.

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Cervical cancer jab

I had my first cervical cancer jab at school today. It didn't hurt that much, not as much as an anaesthetic or a blood test but afterwards now it really does ache, and I find it hard to lift it, it really hurts and feels really tight and tense. Hopefully it gets better soon.

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Show in a week

Well we have 'The Wizard of Oz' show in a week, its quite scary actually how much the time flies. We have had so many rehearsals up and down from east grinstead and sevenoaks every saturday 2-5pm and every sunday 1-3.30pm, but now tomorrow has been extended to 1-5 and sunday kept the same. I'm going to be so tired, I cant wait till the performances are over though. Hope it all goes well, and we have costume rehearsals soon with hair and makeup that we have to do ourselves.

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Orthodontist

Yesterday was the orthodontist, so I left school early at 1.30pm, just 10 minutes before the end of lunch. I was so tired from going to see the movie avatar in cinema the night before (a 3 hour long film) that I had a small nap in the car on the way back and about 30 minutes to maybe an hour nap when I got home; and I was still really tired afterwards. Tonight I'm going to Chris and Angie's tuesday bible studies club again, and my parents are getting takeaway, they are really unhealthy. This means I will have to find something for dinner and decide what I want.

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'Bullfrog' Productions

It was a long day at Cheqeurs Mead Theatre, costume fitting and rehearsals for 'The Wizard of Oz'. 12-5pm - a 5 hour long day. We managed to get all the costumes fitted and the Jitterbug and Ghost dance rehearsed, as well as main character filming, and the ending scene practised, though we were sitting around most of the time. Another lot of rehearsals at The Stag theatre tomorrow 10-3.30pm, 5 and a half hours long. It will all be worth it when the production is over in the end hopefully. Wish me luck!

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Busy year

I can tell this is definately going to be a busy new year, with everything I have going on its hard to catch up. Tomorrow I have got 5 hours bullfrog youth theatre rehearsals from 12-5pm to catch up for what we missed last week, and then Sunday I have 5 and a half hours rehearsals from 10-3.30pm as it has been extended for longer due to the production being in only a few weeks. Tiresome weekend yet I hope we can slot bluewater in there again somewhere, hopefully tomorrow!

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CY Group

I started a new CY Group today, we played a few games at first, I met a few new people and we had a bible study at the end, and a few snacks and drinks, it was fun and I was on the red team. Our team won of course which only meant we got first dibs on the coke drinks, crisps and chocolate chip cookies which I don't drink or eat anyway so you know its all good, a prize or something would have been good but never mind ay. Pretty cool though and I will probably be going every friday now.

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Shopping Spree

After a nice day of shopping with my brother and sister, I realised that by trying on different pairs of jeggings and jeans that I am a size 4 short leg. It's good that I know this, now I can get pairs of jeans that actually fit again. I bought a pair from miss selfridges for 25 pounds and when I was trying them on when I got home I prayed that I wouldnt have to take them back, they fit perfectly, bonus!

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2010 Resolutions

• Get more excercise, fit in around 30 minutes of excercise or 60 minutes a day.
• Finish reading the Harry potter books.
• Sort out the clothing I'm buying
• Save £100 for sweet 16 party this year.
• Gather enough pocket money to buy my mum a birthday and mothers day present.
• Get money for items that I would like to purchase.
• Create a birthday or christmas wishlist to help afford all these things.
• Cut down on the amount of black tea I drink - This will be hard.
• Focus on school more.
• Make more time to meet up with friends and old friends.
• Look after yourself properly.
• Find a day where you can actually be bothered to get out of your nightwear.
• Purchase Gossip Girl seasons set and DVD's and Cd's or put on a list for presents and gifts.

What are your new year's resolutions? Do you have any. I'd love to hear x

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W/S Style wishlist

Things I want for this Winter/Spring

• Thermal Cardigan Top
• Floral lace cami
• Smocked mini skirt
• Vintage inspired lace dress
• Raw edge ruffle shrug
• 120 Den winter white tights
• Strappy patent court
• White patent ballerina shoes
• Victorian Frill Detail dress by TG
• Rose print dress by TG
• Rose soft touch opaque tights
• 80 Den Nude nights
• Bow print bikini
• Anchor print bikini
• Organic sateen supa skinny monkee genes - Pink
• Inky Blue Organic Denim Supa-Skinny
• Jack wills rachwal socks
• Pink bow knee high socks
  

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The Stomache bug

Yesterday, I had a bad case of the stomache bug, it was extremely painful, I had belly ache all night and was up and down to the toilet. I know, pleasant right? I also have a constant runny nose and a cold therefore I stayed off school today, back to school tomorrow though, I need to hand my english narrative writing to my teacher asap.

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Minkyshop

The cutest japanese clothing you have ever seen, I know what I will be asking for my birthday and christmas in future. wow!!.

What do you think of Japanese clothing? Do you have any cute anime or manga loves? Take a look at Minkyshop on ebay for the shop if you like the products.

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The Big Freeze

It definately is The Big Freeze across the UK. Set off for school today and spent an hour and a half sitting in the car in traffic, we managed to travel in that space of time from our village to the next, in the end we had to turn around and phone the school to say I cannot make it in. It's ridiculous it really is, then again I now have an excuse to have yet another day off school from the weather, get into my pj's, wrap up warm in my dressing gown and drink a nice warm cup of tea. Isn't that just the ideal winter comfort? And later I'm planning on having a relaxing hot bath to soak in a luscious pink butterfly bath bomb I want to get rid of because to be hounest it look's pretty ridiculous in my bedroom. I have a cold and my nose keep's running it's not very nice, but then again I always have been a little summer baby. We're living in a winter wonderland, hopefully it brightens up for next week. How do you feel about the weather? Feel free to comment

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Educated Minds

I learn't alot tonight at Chris and Angie's bible studies. We learn't alot about Jesus' resurrection and looking at proven records and evidence that the bible is a true record. It was a heavy learning session but it was good to get all questions out. We managed to pray a little at the end. I was busy watching them eating their late dinner of butter and golden syrup on crumpets when I first arrived and as they drank their tea we sat next to the fire in the warm living room and just spoke about it and were educated together, it was fun and breathe taking. I will finish this blog now and go to bed, I managed to finish my english narrative writing essay based on world war II and watch the eastenders recording, an earlier night I think, all my love.

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Lovely Little things

With my new addiction of cute little vintage items, I have found things from strawberry bunny, urban outfitters, and etsy. If ever I get my dream bedroom which I doubt at the moment, I really want these!.

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Back to school

What an eventful day? I went back to school after the week off due to snowy weather, they call it the big freeze, I wonder why? I need atleast a pair of fluffy boots, a jumper, coat, gloves and a scarf to keep me warm, a few more layers I wouldn't give a miss either. I'm really worried though.. If you do not already know, I went to the doctor's a few weeks ago to ask why I haven't recieved my period yet, I mean come on I'm 15 now and one of the oldest in my year. The doctor said it's due to me being underweight which can effect it. Typically though my friend at school Taylor I thought was underweight too, but she started her period today, I'm really jealous, I know it hurts and everything but I'm worried, I want to start like any other normal teenager girl. I hope I start soon! I'm going to finish this post now to go off to finish my english essay *crosses fingers* and I'm off to chris and angies for bible studies later, joy!

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Secret addiction

I am becoming addicted to etsy, its a cute little website with vintage items in it, I have found lots of sweet little things which I will be adding to my favourites. I have managed to tidy my room and sort some stuff out for sale to earn a bit of extra cash. I realised that the £70 christmas money I recieved will be gone in no time if I spend it on the outfits that I want, a little sucking up to my mum may be necessary, just to help me afford a small amount of what I want. Back to school tomorrow how stupid, I really hate school, but yet I love my friends. So much to do, So little time!

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Major Change

THE MAJOR CHANGE-


Today is the day that I make the major change. I have not posted in such a long time, that I will be posting the start of a very new blog from now on. The website will include recent up to date blogs.



PREVIOUS HAPPENINGS -

SUMMER HOLIDAYS -

Went on holiday to devon in summer holidays, met some lovely people, and had lots of fun, I miss them so much, but I am still keeping in touch with them. I run out of things to do, as I was busy as soon as the summer holidays started, therefore got bored nearer the end having nothing to do.


MY BIRTHDAY-

Two days ago, on the 10th September, was my 15th birthday. Unfortunately it was school, however, I was with my friends celebrating at lunch time. I left opening my presents until after school, therefore I had something to look forward too. When I got home and opened them, I recieved millions of clothes, jewellery, a new bike, bike gear, body products, makeup, a spanish drawn picture, and so much more. It was a huge surprise because later on I went with my family to a restaurant, over ate, got home late, and yet I had an amazing night.



YEAR 10 -

Gone head first into gcse, recieving tons of coursework, set myself a very good revision time table for seperate topics on each subject, and even though its very nerve racking, its exciting as well. Hopefully I will do really well in my gcse coursework and all my exams, I am constantly trying hard.



TODAY

I woke up rather late this morning, went with my brother to meet my mum and dad at a boot fair, then left to go to a friend of my brothers bbq party for his birthday. At the moment I am currently at home watching the x-factor and have got changed into some warmer clothing, cooped up on the arm chair on my laptop.

More to come....

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Belgium Battlefields

Yesterday we went to belgium on a battlefields trip, was really fun. I sat next to hayley aspland on the ride there was soo fun. Took loads of pictures and got on the ferry. Saw some really fit boys and then arrived in belgium. Looked at some cemetraries, went in the trenches of first and second world war, looked at an important statue where you pay your respects. stayed on the coach until arriving at mening gate, it was beautiful. Forgot to mention my digital camera's battery ran out before I got a chance to take pictures of the trip other than the coach ride lool annoying! Me, Emma, Lily, Kaylea, and others went into chocolate shop and bought some nice belgium chocolates and then went to eat some fish n chips, Mrs collinson so kindly gave us some money to spend in there. YAY XD. Then the 8pm service where our schools and others went up to lay down poppy reefs and trumpets played. Making our way home on the coach to the ferry and having a great time with boys and in arcades there, I even got to wear this boys n-dubz hat and spoke to some manchester boys from at the top of the deck. Some boys clapped us on the dance machine and watched us race and was following us around the ferry. Jewy, Blondie XD, Dyl and the other boys in these special made jumpers was soo funny, following those neeks! They all thought we was londoners lool, we was like err no we are from kent!


Then we had the journey on the coach back where I fell asleep listening to my Ipod nano chronomatic and then woke up in time just before we arrived. Found out some great news about anna regelous, she opened her eyes and started talking. YAYY, please get better soon anna! Love Yhooo x

When I got home I slept until 2pm the next morning and now I am writing about it and excercising on wii fit. That was a great day!

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